Going through all these old photos on facebook and it makes me nostalgic and sad. 
I wish I could be that skinny again, or close to it. At the moment my self confidence is at an all time low. Going to become a gym bunny..  Damn birth control side effects. If I could just lose the pudge from my face and tummy I'd be content.

Wedding Planning Progress!

So I'm quite proud of myself to be honest, the last few days I've made quite a bit of progress with wedding planning things.

I've found a dress I love the look of online and it's sold in a local store too! And it won't break the budget. I so want to go have a look at it now and order it, but since we don't have a date set yet that won't really work as I had hoped. Hopefully we can nail down a date soon and sort something out. I'm not going to post pictures of that dress on here because, well that's supposed to be a surprise but I will of the bridesmaids dresses I just found on Etsy. I love how versatile they are and the price of them is pretty decent too!

I'm actually really in love with the colour of the dresses too. It's really pretty and I think it would suit all the ladies I have in mind to ask to be bridesmaids. Which I still haven't totally decided on. That's another issue we need to discuss when it gets closer.

The more I think of a beach wedding the more I like the idea, or a nice garden somewhere. I want it to be simple but stunning. I want class but not OTT and I don't want to spend a fortune. I refuse to spend a ridiculous amount of money on it. Actually that will be rather impossible with my mother's Italian stingy-ness kicking in. Hopefully I can avoid that as much as possible. I really don't want to have to deal with it too much.

For bouquets I really had no idea where to start looking so I facebook stalked all the people I know who are married to search for some ideas and I also looked on Pinterest, Etsy and through all my new bridal magazines too. I found these silk roses ones on Etsy which I think are quite sweet - I won't have the purple colour of course.

The question is which is better: Real flowers or silk flowers?

My scrap book of Wedding ideas is going really well too. I have heaps of dresses cut out and stuck in for both myself and the bridesmaids. Some ideas for table settings and hair styles and I'm writing in my research findings for venues etc too.

There really just is far too much to think about!
At least there is one thing I know I dearly want and god forbid anything happens but I can have it... My Dad to walk me down the isle.

House Stuff Basically

I'm totally proud of myself. Up at 5.30am and to the gym with Kara & Kristy at 6am. It was just about an hour long work out. I did pretty well considering I'm still recovering after a messive effort at Relay for Life. After that I had to move the mattress out of our bedroom so it could all be nicely painted by the wonderful Megan - which it is now. I can't wait to get home and see it. Finally a change from the boring white and a splash of colour - not to mention finally being able to tidy the house up!

The whole painting was more of a dilemma then it had to be. M and I had to empty everything out of the room again which was all fine til it led him onto a I ** hate this ** house and never get ** family to ** help like rant because it got him thinking about how badly his grandad stuffed up the paint. He was just being really rough when moving things etc and ranting on like that to himself. He then got even more mad when we took the curtain rod holders off the wall because the plaster came off with them. He was totally unapproachable that I practically yelled at him and told him to stop being such an a-hole. Then to try get the room ready I mentioned taking the old TV bracket off the wall - he then acted like a child and he didn’t care and to just leave it. We couldn’t leave it, it wouldn’t look right after it was painted. So I ranted at him about him wanting the house nice and that this was his chance and he was going to waste it?

So I removed the damn bracket by myself (talk about an effort). He was still shitty so I stormed off, went to Bunnings and got stuff to fix the walls. Went back home, got the stupid bolts out of the damn wall (they are those expanding ones that go right through to the brick and are a pain to get out) and patched the walls myself. I'm really rather proud of my handy man efforts! Who needs a man, I'm more than capable of it myself I know know! (Except for having to ask my Dad for advice, but all the actual work I did myself). He’d calmed down after that and apologised but it was still a pain. Not to mention his antics this morning. I got a text from Megan asking the colours for the bulk head painting so I rang him to ask and he was all like “you picked the colours, you decide”. WE AGREED on the colours. I only suggested them. So I told him he was being an a-hole, and made a choice myself. Too bad if he doesn't like it.

So anyway, tonight when I get home from work I'll have a nicely, professionally painted bedroom and I'll get to put everything back into it. I'm looking forward to it all being done. Tomorrow I'll get some new curtain rod holders and suck up to Dad to come round to put them up for me and wash the new doona cover to put onto the bed. It's going to look fanastic!

And best news is that our kitchen is getting done early next year (that's how long the guy is booked out for!!). So I'll have a shiny new kitchen and a working oven - finally. Shame it can't be done before Christmas for all the traditional baking - I guess I'll just have to invade Mum's kitchen. But it will look so great. We even get a thin granite benchtop and it's not going to be plain black and white either (another huge woohooo if you ask me). It'll give the house a whole new feel, especially once we get the living areas painted too.

Spotlight has another sale on so I might go there and look at some new cushions for the couch and such to add a splash of colour.

Another way to tell that you are getting old? You get excited when you hear that Aquire is having a sale. Haha. I got a Maxwell & Williams platter for $12 and a new spices rack, it's one of those modern stainless ones. It will look so good when the kitchen is all done.

That's pretty much all in the house sort of updates for now!

You know, I don't care if my BMI is in the healthy weight range I want to lose weight.
I weigh the most I ever have and it's gross. I really hate it. I'm going on an exercise kick starting tomorrow.

Relay for Life this weekend will be good for it too.

There hasn't been all that much happening over the last few weeks. Went to Perth shopping with Miss B last weekend and had a great time. Was a great day for shopping, found so many things that I liked and got some great bargains as well.

Other than that it's been pretty much the same old, work and do stuff around the house. We've gotten some nice new plants for the garden and a couple for the new pots we got at a home show. How domestic do we sound now? There is still no word on the kitchen quote which is frustrating, I just want to plan our engagement party already.

I was off work sick yesterday with a migraine. I really feel sorry for anyone who gets them, they just arent pleasant. My lovely back and back keep going out of place and causing mine, it's a total frustration. I really have no idea what to do to stop them other then having a regular massage, which is a struggle to afford at the moment, I've got bills popping up everywhere!

That and anything wedding related is a frustration to start. Trying to get the fiance to answer questions about anything wedding related is seemingly a trouble. He is excited etc too but focused more on money side of things then anything which honestly, is putting a downer on it all.  Help me research and plan, lets set a date so we have a focus. He seems more interested in holidays and going to bali for someone elses wedding. Stuff the holidays I want to get married then we can have an awesome holiday for our honeymoon. Will have to discuss all that this weekend... And it's a long weekend which is awesome. Going to look at a wedding reception venue with my mum - that will be interesting but at least she's turned her attitude around.

I've also started collecting photos and ideas for wedding dresses, bridesmaid dresses and all that sort of thing too. I bought a visual art diary for it and that's going with my planner. It's exciting. But you know what's difficult? Picking bridemaids.

Long Awaited Post and Exciting News!!

Gosh there is just so much I don't know where to start. So I shall with the last post.

The holiday to Airlie Beach was utterly fantastic! I had the best time. The weather was so lovely and I ended up with a beautiful tan. We got to be touristy, relax and see the Great Barrier Reef. We went out on a Cruise Whitsundays boat to a reef pontoon and spent the day snorkelling, seeing the reef and just relaxing. It was like 3 hours each way to the reef but it was so worth it. The wedding we went to over there was just amazing too. The bride looked stunning and the whole day was just perfect from the location, to the ceremony, to the photos and the reception. I had the most fantastic time and met some of the most amazing people that it didn't matter I had gone there only knowing M, the best man.
The very last day we spent in Airlie Beach M and I went on an Ocean Rafting Trip out to the reef & Whitehaven Beach. That day is one I will remember and treasure forever. The boat trip out was such fun. First stop was this little island where we went on a bit of a bushwalk up to the most amazing view point. The water was so blue, the sand so white. Everything was so untocuhed and pristine in it's beauty. We got lots of great photos, this one of the scenery is one of my favourites by far.

After that we got back aboard our zodiac boat and then stopped about another 20 minutes later on a reef. Clad in just our swimmers and with a snorkel we jumped overboard and got to spend more time snorkelling this amazing reef. The colours of the fish and the coral were so bright and different to the other reef we went too. Maybe because this place was not so commercialised or whatever but it was so amazing. M was all sweet and held my hand as we swam along. It was so much fun. 

The next destination was Whitehaven beach. And here is the exciting news!

I'M ENGAGED!!

We got to relax for a bit on the beach and take in the really nice view. The place was just so picturesque and perfect. Lunch was served by the crew of the boat and it was just a nice simple lot of cold salads and other salady type food. Mark was being the perfect gentleman helping me out and clearing away our plates. I felt so full after lunch and had just settled into a comfortable position when M decided he wanted to go for a walk. I said no initially but he was rather adamant so I gave in and we went for walk.  Now I know how frustrated he must have been and nervous too. 


We walked a bit up the beach and then went through a look through the bush area. Once we were back on the beach we walked hand in hand just making idle chit chat about how nice the spot was and about all the boats. I think we had walked about half way down the beach when we stopped and contemplated the idea of turning around and walking back. Before I could take the first step back to our spot he stopped me and asked me if I wanted to clean my jewelley (the sand on whitehaven is a high silica content or something like that and thus good for cleaning jewellery). I said no I wouldn't bother and then he pulls the most beautiful diamond ring out of his pocket and asks "what about this one?" I was so floored. I actually said to him, "what?". He just looked at me and I gave him the biggest hug. I was holding the ring over his shoulder and just staring at in disbelief. We pulled a little bit a part and I looked up at him, trying to read his eyes. Looking straight back at me he said "Marry Me". I stumbled out a yes and kissed him. He asked me if he had to get down on one knee but I told him I would spare him that embarrassment, I didn't want everyone on the beach staring at us.   Needless to say the rest of that day I kept smiling like an absolute happy in love idiot. There was lots of hugs, cuddles and kisses that afternoon. 


We went for a swim after that and Mark made sure I took my ring off and we hid it safely back in his wallet. There was even a comment of "You better not lose it". Bless. As it turns out the reason he was late to pick me up from the Mackay airport was not because he got lost, but because he had been buying my ring. It was so sweet really, he didn't want to get caught out buying the ring in our home town and wanted to completely surprise me, which he totally did. 


 Anyway, not long after our swim it was time to return back to Airlie. The ride back to shore was so much fun too, the driver did donuts and tricks in the boat it was such an adrenalin rush. 

Most of our family and friends were so excited and happy at the news except for a few which was really disppointing, one in particular but thankfully she seems to have snapped out of it now. I can't believe how many people cried or rang up practically screaming. 

The flight back to reality was long, the weather when we got home cold and rainy. The few days we had at home was so nice. We did the visiting of the rellies, sharing the news. Got my gorgeous ring resized and spent some time around the house. Watched the AFL Grand Final.

Being back at work was a shock and now, two weeks back in it felt like I never had holidays, except for the gorgeous photos I have and bling on my finger. Work has been so busy trying to catch up - no one covered for me whilst I was away and the silly little things they forgot without me being there was just madness. I've almost got it all covered and up to date. 

It was my birthday yesterday and I got rather spoilt, I'm so lucky to have such giving friends and family. The girls gave me this really cute wedding planner, it's hot pink. It was such an amazing and thoughtful gift, I can't wait to actually get to use it and plan my wedding. M and I would get married tomorrow if we had the money. Gah money. We're planning an engagement party soon enough too. 

Our parents met for the first time over dinner last night and seemed to get along really well which is just awesome. Both had points to bond over, talk about and it now seems like engagement party planning will be full steam ahead once we pick the date for it - the same with wedding plans as well. So much to think about, so much to do. Plus the house is still a mess waiting for more painting to be done. One step at a time I think. 

Here are a few more happy snaps from our trip.

So starting again since apparently this will not let me copy and paste.

Firstly, I am so so very glad that it's Friday. I'm totally exhausted and really just want to curl up in my bed and sleep.

Last night I drove M to the airport and back after work so he could catch his flight for our holiday. He's going over there now for the bucks party this weekend and I will be meeting him in a few days time. You know how boys are with their no females around bucks parties rule.
Saying goodbye at the airport wasn't fun, I missed him as soon as I walked away. He was so sweet. He has arrived safely though which is good. Anyone who saw me driving home from the airport must have thought I was a nutter singing and rocking out to my music, but really I had to stay awake somehow.

Today at work is final preparations and trying to make sure that everything is done for when I am away. It really is amazing how little anyone knows about my job role and how it's all done. I hope it goes well whilst I'm away, I really don't want to come back to a mess.

So excited to get my hair done tomorrow too. Will be so nice! I'm staying blonde again, I don't know why I ever changed away from it. I'm thinking a change to the style though, maybe something like in the below picture. I loved my hair in that style and it would be nice for a change.

I thought I had done all my packing for my trip except for the things I need to use til I leave. Apparently not. I've found other clothes that I think would suit better so I'm going to have to go through and swap them all tonight. You know the annoying thing? Different carriers and different luggage amounts and sizes. I can't take my lime green overnight bag with one because it's too big AND my supposed 3 piece luggage set was missing the carry on bag, bother. Might have to steal M's. If I could find the receipt I would so go complain. Note to self: check purchases next time even if the thing is sealed! Tonight I'll work more on the packing and finish sorting out the bedroom. It's empty now and the house is a shambles, thats what we get for having it painted whilst we are away. Can't wait til it's all done. Have to go get another sample pot of paint tomorrow morning too.

I also get to visit the lovely Miss C and meet her beautiful baby girl. So excited to meet her and am so proud of C. She'll make the best mum.

I can't really think of much else to say. Hopefully my next post will be filled with awesome pictures and wonderful stories about my holiday!

Until then. . .

xoxo

Just got an original post of mine reblogged (twice!) on Tumblr- feeling rather special right now!

http://xmisskirax.tumblr.com/

Our Queensland holiday is just around the corner! Less than two weeks at work to go. I'm getting so excited. I'm actually getting tempted to pull out my new purple suitcases and make a start on packing but I have a feeling that M would totally laugh at me - so I'll stick with mental lists for now.

The dress that I had ordered for the wedding arrived yesterday - it's being posted back today. It's not what I expected and so not nice at all. Thankfully, I decided to contact the bride myself and ask her how formal the event is and now know what sort of dress I need. I think I may have one or two that would suit but if not Miss B and I are going shopping Saturday. A big shout out to H for giving me some great ideas for dresses too.

Speaking of clothing I was good and went through my clothing collection and have a huge pile to sell on ebay, a box I gave to Miss B to look through and another bag to take to the Salvation Army - hopefully they can sell it on to some poeple that will make use of it all. Silliest thing is with even how much I've taken out I still have so many clothes (and nothing to wear! lol).

Works being going good, hit the two year anniversary here last week which was awesome, had a review, got a rise and the boss is happy with me. Best news to get yesterday, it's nice to feel valued and know that you are doing the right thing. The boss has also offered to pay for any courses that I might want to do, so I'm going to look into some of those and will hopefully find some. I'm pretty sure that it will all be manageable.

Our renovation is still in progress, we've now got a quote that is making stone benchtops look achieveable and from another cabinet place that should work in with what we already have. I'm so excited to be able make some actually progress and see things happening with this one. I've been looking online for some nice artwork to hang around the place too. And I think we've finally agreed on a colour scheme for the bedroom - now I want to go any buy new linen and cookware. Of course there are sales on at the moment just because my money is tied up for this holiday. Hopefully there will still be some sales on after, or maybe I'll investigate laybuy for some. . .

Father's Day was a busy day but so nice to spend time with my family and M's family too. Dad loved his gift which was even better. It's days and times like that you truly appreciate everything you have with your family and the unconditional love no matter how long you are apart.

Updates & Apology

So again I fail at regularly blogging. I'll try give the best update I can for the past few weeks.

My appendix op recovery went well and I'm pretty much back to normal, still get the odd twinge of pain every so often but so much better. I'm hoping the scars will fade away quickly, but I have to be happy that they aren't that big. I can't wait to get back to the gym either, it will be so good to get into exercise again and hopefully tone up a bit/shed a few kilos.

My latest obsession is nail polish, I had the last two I ordered arrive yesterday. So excited to finally get to try them. I'll post pictues when I have. One is the most gorgeous sparkly gun metal grey colour and the other is purple (typical of me, I know!)

There is less than a month until our QLD holiday. So excited for a break! Me being me I am already writing mental lists of what to take and what I need to buy and trying to organise everything, whilst madly trying to save so I have enough spending money. Also going to try sell a bunch of clothes that I never wear on ebay, hopefully I'll have some luck with that.

A few close family members have been a bit ill lately but fortunately all seem to be making a good recovery. Things with M are going really well, except his grump last night but thankfully he apologised and all is good again. Silly men.

Oh and how is this? I broke the silly oven. Thankfully we are working on the kitchen reno, so hopefully it won't take to long to get sorted and so I can finally have an oven again, I want to bake me some cupcakes!! M and I are all inspired from watching The Block and have gotten some great ideas from their magazine and it's been fun planning. It reminds me why I wanted to be an interior decorator/designer.

Work was quiet again but is busy this week with reports and that sort of thing. Best news today, we get 3 weeks holidays over the Christmas/New Years period. *Squeee*

I think that is pretty much all for now... Until next time!

You make every effort to make things better, to give everything your best.

You improve what was lacking. You be the best you think you can be and finally everything seems right.

But then something crops up and that one thing manages to make you feel that every effort you had made just wasn't good enough. That the feeling you had of being content was just false and that you, yourself are not good enough.

Well you know what, fuck you buddy.

Well what came on feeling like stomach cramps that I hope would go away over night turned out to be something far more serious.

M, my boss I and coworker J teased me and said it might be my appendix. They were right.

From my doctors appointment they told me to straight to the hospital ER. Within hours I was having a keyhole operation to have it removed. I have three cuts on my abdomen, one on my belly button, that one I hope more then the rest heals properly.

My night at the hospital sucked. I got back to my room and was spoilt by visits from M, my parents and greeted with flowers from M and from his parents, sister and her family. They are gorgeous flowers. I will have to upload a pic to this post later on, when I feel better.

I was so drowsy I could barely keep my eyes open, so my visitors left and I slept. Only to get woken almost every hour to check my stats. So from then on I woke every hour. KB and K were there to reply to messages every so often on facebook which was great, for once I like the time difference being there.

This morning I got upset after a rather cold and indifferent reaction from someone I classed as a really close friend. It was heartbreaking really when my online friend and boyfriend's family cared more. Hell even his Nanna rang to see how I was going!

Anyway, I suppose at least it got taken out before it burst and was much worse. But I feel like a cripple. It feels uncomfortable to move, I can't stand for long, can't lift barely anything. I can't do much of anything for myself and I loathe it. To top it off I feel all emotional and keep wanting to cry. Oh and my allergy to the sticky crap on bandaids has reappeared. Winner.

Only plus is a week off work to recover which means more time to spend on Skype with Nifa, Ky & KB.

I have the World's Best Dad and I just had to brag about it.

I honeslty don't know what I would do without him. Dad and I have always gotten along like the best of friends, we have the same personality, same ideals, hell I even look more like him.

Every time I have needed them he has been there, that shoulder to cry on, the one to tease me til I smile, the one to have a joke and laugh with. He'll always help me out, always offer advice. He's my rock and I love him more then words could ever describe. I'm so lucky.

I'm not over the loss. I don't know if I ever will be. It still makes me so sad.

I see tokens in shops for Grandad's and they make me want to cry.

I hear things about breast cancer and it pains me.

I hear about children with illness or people taking advantage of their children and I get upset and mad.

Treasure those you love and make the most of each day.

RIP my Beautiful Angels xo

Tuesday, 19th July 2011

You know how hard it is to maintain a blog when there is not much happening in your life?

Things are really the same old. Works gone back to being annoyingly quiet again. M is actually going better and making more of an effort with things too. And he was cute after he got home from his 'boys golf weekend' being all cuddly and saying he missed me. Is it mean that I liked the space and having the bed to myself? Lol.

The weather has been so cold lately it's frustrating. I'm trying to find the motivation to get out of bed in the mornings to go to the gym before work but when you stick one arm out of bed and instantly pull it back in because of the cold it's not a good sign. It was 1C the other morning, by the time I got back to work it was still only 2.8. Blergh.

Only 10 weeks left til our QLD holiday. I'm so excited but at the same time trying to save like a mad woman so I have enough spending money for it.

The rest of this week will be a bit busy catching up with people and possibly a trip to IKEA in Perth to get ideas and costings for more parts of our kitchen reno.

Oh and I got my birthstone ring the other week. I'm so in love. It's gorgeous. <3

Sunday July 10, 2011

So I haven't blogged for a while, bit of a fail I know.

Work got busy with end of financial year which was nice for a change. I had to take a day off work with a migraine which was terrible.

This weekend I went out with the girls for S's 21st Geek themed brewery tour. It was a good day, we all made pretty sexy geeks. I caught up with L today too and got to meet her gorgeous baby girl. Poor L had so many drama's I never knew about. I'm glad she's recovered though.

As for the rest of the weekend. Well

You know the straw that broke the camel's back saying?

So true.

Breaking point was reached and I lost it. Closest I've ever come to shouting at him.

For the record, I didn't shout.

I persisted and it all in all it worked out for the best though.

I literally lost it in tears for the fifth time today in front of him. I got that mad I turned the TV off and made him listen to me. And listen he did. And apologise. I feel so much better now it's all out there and he's promised to make some changes. Even just tonight he's been better. Here's to hoping the man keeps it up.

Also a big shout out to K, KB, R and B for being awesome, caring and listening to my rants or just being there for me. You ladies are the best. <3

A Ramble from Tumblr.

More often then not lately people keep asking such personal questions about the future and I admit it has me thinking, but at the same time I just want to tell them all to go away. It seems that as people reach a certain stage in their life or even just as they form their own ideas about how life should go they start to pressure you and suddenly your age becomes the enemy. Whatever happened to taking things at you own pace and respecting people’s ability to make their own choice?

In talking to my friend, lets call her R, she posed an interesting question in regards to marriage. One that came up because R and I were talking about Catherine Zeta Jones and how she opted not to take her husbands name - R then said: “ I have a rather kickass RL last name (as do you, incidentally), and I’d hate to give it up.” Interesting question, one that really I hadn’t considered. What would you do in that choice? Is it the thing to do? No, it’s not a concern at the moment, sure one day it could happen but there are no plans for that any time soon. I wish certain people would stop hinting and asking about it. Again, just because your pace was a lot faster then ours does not mean ours is wrong.

The other big topic at the moment: Children. Several people I know have either had or are having a baby and I offer the biggest congratulations and happiness to all of them. It’s great they get to start their own family and are happy, but again, there are certain people placing the pressure about the idea of kids and soon. Is it hard for some of those people to, again, think that they are at a different stage of their life, that again, people have a different plan and are moving at their own pace? Or that like another friend of mine, that children might not be in the plan?
I’ve never thought that of people my age as old. Older then some friends, siblings etc yes, but how did life manage to sneak up and make such major life events like these the topics? Life is amazing in how it all changes and skips ahead without you really realising.

And no, this isn’t directed at anyone in particular.

Friday 24th June, 2011

Another working week has almost past - thank gosh.

Today actually was going well. There was work to do for once this week - I mean an actual decent amount that has kept me busy for most of the day. I am loving listening to the rain - even if it did flood the kitchen at work and leak through spots in the shed roof. Like I said it was going well, until now. I've been charged with calculating information. This is all well and good. I love figures, mathematics and all that sort of thing. What I don't like is the topic. Knowing the outcome, the future for one person and having to sit tight and not speak a word. The economic climate right now sucks.

As a present to myself I ordered a new ring, with an Opal in it. My birthstone. It's so pretty I can't wait for it to arrive, but then I will most likely need to get it sized. But for the price it cost me I will not complain at all. Other then that I've just bought some little nicknack's for the house, who would have thought that I would go all house proud and even voluntarily do gardening!

This weekend I hope to have a mainly quiet one. I'm cooking my man a special dinner tonight to celebrate his first week of work at his new job. It's been good so far having him home all the time, though it hasn't really been long enough really to tell. Fingers crossed.

For the rest I hope to get some time to catch up on sleep and then there is the girl's dinner I have organised (my gosh that was more difficult then it had to be) but it will be nice to see all the girls again. Hopefully there will be some time to write and speak with K & KB on Skype some more. I loved getting to chat to them last night, it was so much fun.

I can't wait to get home, get into my pj's and just listen to the rain and this storm if it appears.

Tuesday 21st June, 2011

So the weekend was great - got to spend some time with M and his family. Got to chat with some of my friends on Skype for a little while - it has been too long since a proper conversation I tell you. I got to see my gorgeous niece and have a little cuddle. The Eagles won their game too which was a bonus. I loved my "date night" with Miss C - even if the movie wasn't exactly wasn't what I expected. Bridesmaids really is like The Hangover, cringe worthy toilet humour - but, it did have some of the typical rom-com attributes even if it was over the top.

Work has been really quiet of late. For the third day in a row I have run out of work. I even got sent home early on Friday and yesterday. I'm not complaining, it was nice to go early and beats sitting around just looking up random things on the internet that's for sure. It also meant that on Friday I got to take advantage of the sale at Spotlight and get some nice new sheets for cheap and a cute pillow. I also got to pick up my new clutch and earrings from the couriers - PeepToe Shoes send everything by courier - OMG the boxes they came in are soo cute. So stoked.
But back to the subject of work, it is worrying. They've already had the speech of times are tough and if worst comes to worst.. I just hope that it doesn't. I like my job, I need my job. I have bills to pay and a shopping addiction to feed. Lol.

M made dinner last night which was lovely of him there is even heaps of leftovers for lunches which made me very happy. So whilst I try not to die of boredom at work at least I know I have a nice lunch to look forward to and a movie day with the lovely Miss B tonight. We're going to see the Pirates of the Caribbean 4 movie.

Friday 16th June, 2011

I am so relieved that it's Friday. This week feels like it has taken forever to pass! Work has been ridiculously quiet. Each day is spent mostly online trying to find something new online to entertain me and ever so slowly doing what little work I have to make it stretch out longer.

Thankfully the volcanic ash cloud has cleared and flights will be back to normal so the boyfriend can fly home today. It was his last shift working up at Yandi - for some reason they deemed it worthwhile to send him back to work for 3 days, but oh well. I feel so incredibly lucky that this man changed his job for me. Now have "normal" living arrangements - our first test at living together full time. I'm sure it will all work out, it will just be a little bit of an adjustment.

I got to catch up with N last night, it was the first time in a long time that I got to see her but it was as if no time as passed. We've been close friends ever since school and that has never changed. It was so nice just to sit and talk.

This weekend will be a mainly quiet one - thank gosh. I am so over going out. The plan is dinner with the lovely Miss C and going to see the movie Bridesmaids and of course to spend time with M. And the essential sleep in's of course. I can not wait!

A Tribute to an Amazing Man

Yesterday was a tough day. It marked a year since my beloved Grandad passed away. Everytime I thought about it, I wanted to cry. Heck, even typing this now I want to cry.

I'm not overly religious but I do believe that my Grandad is in heaven, watching down over me, my family, all those that he loved. He believed in it, so I shall believe, for him. I know it may sound silly to some, but I said out loud my feelings, as if I was indeed speaking to him. Telling him how much I love and miss him, how I hope he is watching over me and how I hope I am making him proud.

Grandad was one of the most funny, amazing, clever, loving people you would have ever had the chance to meet. He always cracked jokes and had nicknames for us all. He always called me Ma-kettle, a dutch thing. I loved it. He'd always want to know about our lives, make sure we were happy. A memory that always makes me smile is the phone calls with him, he'd always quiz me on boyfriends, always wanting to make sure they were good enough for me. The last Christmas we saw him, the last time I ever got to see him alive I took my Mark along to the family affair. It was the first time he met a lot of my family, the first time I had ever taken someone to meet that part of my family. Even though Grandad was in a wheelchair, on oxygen, couldn't see properly he was still laughing and joking and he still managed to quiz Dad to make sure Mark was good enough for me. I will forever cherish that memory and any others of Grandad like that.

He was the best grandfather a child could wish for and will forever be loved, cherished and missed. Forever in our hearts.
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